In the process of finding me!

Dear Ellias,

             Life pushes me forward, I can’t be standing at the same place for twenty years waiting for you to come out of prison and sweep me off my feet. Days goes in a circle motion, time change’s us directs us to different directions, and the past is a small box that’s surely locked in the dark corners of the heart. Now I have a family, and a husband to go back to at the end of the day, and couple dreams that will come true in the coming future. The thought of you don’t cross my mind so often as it used to, and love is a lightless star that does not shine in the present of the sun, my days are all sunny. 

For years I lived in a fantasy world where I believed that you are my only prince, but soon I realized that you’re nothing but a frog and despite the numerous kisses we've shared, it never turned you into a man. Yes, I’ve begged you to stop using drugs, I’ve pleased you to welcome my love in your veins, closed eyes, a sharp smile on your face, as you do so when poking the needles in your arms. But you’ve disappointed me. Please don’t look back to the past, and don’t dig another hole in me to which I will never be able to stop it from bleeding.