In the process of finding me !

Sir strange,

I'm writing this letter and I know that I've sinned against your right !
What I know well is that when humans lose something that they're proud of, they lose themselves with it.  your love was equivalent of a war which only had two end, either to defeat or lose. Either way I knew that I was going to lose. In our culture no one has ever won for love!
At the moment we lose we look for other love war, new war to gain our soul back to clean our memory, to forget about our lost and love.

Most of the time I go back to blame the reality and society because it's them who made us believe that every love relationship is war that we will always be defeated.
Every lover in our community is teenager !
Every lovers are stupids !
 and men tend to take care of their bodies more than their heart !

I've told you before that I hate my culture, and my society so much,
I hate the way they believe every rumor, the way they turn us against our emotions.
I hate reality, because it hurts our feelings.
And I hate everything that takes you away from me !

 Now I know that your heart never cared about the distances that were between our bodies,
and my heat never felt better with distance !

 I think your sin is that you fall in love with smart heart
Love is for those whose their heart don't listen to their mind's advise,
and I wasn't one of them.
You asked me once
-what would I say when I love you more every time?
How would I explain to your bad mind That I love you !
You also asked me to not answer, so I did !

Sir what you don't Know is that I believe in reality more then you do !
I hate to lose people I've pray for them even once
I hate staying up late
 I hate crying
And I hate sickness
As a human when our hearts gets arrested by love it becomes very bad !
And my hear was arrest by reality !

Let alone my bad love and your bad luck with me !
Tell me does your  prayers for me reach the sky?!